Ok, here is my story. Feel free to call me Rem. Here is the break down people. This is long distance.
I?m 18, English, finished education and I have no major outstanding commitments. Concerning work, I work in film doing background / stunt work. I have recently finished my last job and currently have options open should I deicide to take them.
She is 18, American and going to Florida for University for approx. 8 years. Concerning work she has recently finished employment due to education, however, intends on re-employment during the summer break. We will call her "K"
Now, concerning myself, my goals in life aren?t unachievable or unrealistic, however, they may be hard to reach. I would like to be an American citizen regardless of K, I want to be successful at what I choose to do and I want to one day have a family of my own. Money is very important in order to achieve this. When it comes to my career I have 3 options that I have been considering, each has its advantages and disadvantages.
Acting ? Something I?ve loved and have devoted a lot of time towards, the money can be really good further up the ladder (I?m not talking fame). The downside is it can be very long periods away from home, doesn?t leave much room for other things I?d like to achieve in my life.
Stunt Work ? I really enjoy doing stunt work, the money is very good for my age and the perks are good fun. The down side is the work can be infrequent and away from home, better than acting however.
Owning my own business ? This is something I like doing and though it pains me to say it may be were I am most successful, I have a natural talent for business and have been making money through my own idea?s since I was very young. The down side isn?t much only it would be extremely hard to set a business up that I could be dependent on in my current situation.
Since I was 11 I?ve known K, we met online and became friends very quickly, soon I realised that I wanted more than friendship, I know what you must be thinking ?he was 11? but hear me out. If you knew K like I know K you?d understand, most of the people reading this will know what it?s like to be really in love for the first time, that was back when I was 11, I?m 18 now. Puppy love doesn?t last 7 years. K has been the only person I?ve ever felt this way about.
At the age of 16 we met for the first time, Philadelphia airport, at the time she had recently come out of a relationship due to her ex having problems, we hit it off very quickly and agreed to give this a go, it?s been just over two years since the first time we kissed. However, recently things have changed.
During my last job I was getting ready to really commit to our relationship, id applied for a Visa and put down non refundable financing. Soon after this however she ended our relationship suddenly for a friend of mine, a local friend, they were doing things behind my back. I cancelled the visa (turned out it had already been approved.) This changed things and has made me see things differently. Once all of this happened I bought a ticket out of impulse, going over there was just to say good bye and remain friends, at least that was the plan.
Within the first few hours we were kissing. All my emotions about K came back and I didn?t want to end this after 7 years of wanting to be with her. Part of me deeply hates what she did with my friend and part of me really wants to be with her. I stayed with her for 3 weeks and during that time we began repairing broken bridges, things seem to of gotten better yet I?m still scared to really trust her. Recently however marriage is now something we have both come to consider, she tells me she truly does love me and I want to believe her, I want to be with her, I want to know we can do this and getting married would pave the way for everything we want. Yet, I?m scared. Do I leave everything behind in England and chase this? America is a wonderful country. Better to know you failed that never tried right? My mind is spinning everyday and I don?t know what to do.
Any help would be most welcome.
Rem.
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